The Torrent


I have been heartbroken to see people become caught up and blown like leafs in the wind by the now very pervasive propaganda that is dominating the current political scene in the USA, resulting in constant and escalating public outrage and vitriol and a refusal to negotiate, cooperate, compromise, and dialogue. It is toxic. And it is literally like a tsunami, an overwhelming, destructive torrent. I keep thinking of Revelations 13:5a – “The beast was given a mouth uttering proud boasts and blasphemies”; Revelation 12:15a – “The serpent, however, spewed a torrent of water out of his mouth…”; and Jesus’ words in  Matthew 24:12 – “Because of an increase in evildoing, the love of many will grow cold.”

Please, be vigilant in prayer. Do not get caught up in all the events and outrages of the day; do not look to the media — social, mainstream, alternative, or otherwise — to tell you how to think about current events. Let your mind be formed in Christ. Let Him give you your first and last thoughts of each day, from Scripture, and have recourse to Him often in between. Do not worry about the things the pagans worry about. They do not know or seek Him. Instead, pray, hope, strive to do good in the opportunities you are presented with each and every moment, and don’t worry. Read Matthew 6:24-34 often. Jesus tells us not to worry. What good does it do? Our lives are in God’s hands. Any idea that we have of control over our lives is an illusion anyway. We are literally one boat ride away from total disaster (see Matthew 8:23-27), so we may as well trust in and abandon ourselves to Jesus Christ, who cares for us, and to whom all power in heaven and earth have been given! (see Matthew 28:18)

Also, I urge you, do not be dismayed as you see the unraveling more and more around you, in politics, in the media, and in social intercourse. Stay close to the Lord; know that you are safe with Him. Know that He made you, and He placed you in these times, in this day, and in this place for a mission. You are not here by accident! Each day, and each moment, seek the Lord and tell him, “Here I am!” First, cleanse your heart; be right with the Lord, and strive to do good. Pray for eyes to see and ears to hear.

As for me in these days, I know that I have to keep speaking strongly but gently and holding to the truth — the full truth; not some truth mixed with lies, and not watered-down truth. The Truth is a person, and that person is Jesus Christ. My, how satan masquerades as an angel of light. That is how the evil one gets those who are blind, slaves to their passions, and/or poorly formed, particularly those with a strong sense of compassion who consider themselves to be social warriors. There are currently evil agendas that claim to have the moral high ground on issues, but at the expense of truth, and they unleash destruction and despair on their victims. All of this is fantastically toxic, and I am strong in faith and knowledge, but I know that I am utterly helpless against this deluge, this tsunami of lies and apostasy that are destroying faith and now even goodwill in Western society.

I am utterly helpless, but I have immense trust in the Lord, and in His saving power. After having a particularly intense conversation with someone I love dearly today, I turned to Jesus in prayer, and prayed the prayer given to St. Faustina by Jesus, “O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fount of mercy for us, I trust in You!” And do you know in that moment, I realized that this divine mercy of Christ — the graces of baptism and the Eucharist — gushes from Jesus’ heart, and therefore we of faith have nothing to fear of the torrent spewed from the mouth of the beast (Revelation 12:15). This torrent of the beast, as overwhelming as it seems to us, is so pathetic compared to the unfathomable mercy of God, gushing from Christ’s pierced heart. “…where sin increased, grace overflowed all the more) (Romans 5:20b). This gave me great consolation and peace, and I praised the Lord. As much as I desire that all follow the Lord in truth and love and learn to hear His voice and love Him deeply — NOW — He desires it ever more ardently. And it is He who is the Savior of each and every person, not I. I will strive to do all that I can in His service, but let’s also pray that He will send all souls on earth now, particularly our own children, the experiences and people that they need in their lives to bring them to Him (and to teach them gently, please, Lord). Let us never look at anyone as our enemy but only as someone who needs to learn of the Lord’s love. And, Jesus, let us be Your instruments who can teach them. Let us who love you say each day and moment, “Send me, Lord!”

torrent-of-graceSo let’s remember this remedy the Lord gave us for the torrent described in Revelation to try to sweep away the woman (i.e., the Church) — His own torrent, but one of grace and mercy: “Oh blood and water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus, as a fount of mercy for us, I trust in You!”  Learn more about the Divine Mercy devotion as entrusted to St. Faustina by Jesus for the whole world.



Materialism, Modernism, and Egoism

Each month, on the 25th, Our Blessed Mother reportedly gives a message to the world through one of the seers in Medjugorje, Marija.  gospaThe message from 25 January 2017 is, Dear children! Today I am calling you to pray for peace: peace in human hearts, peace in the families and peace in the world. Satan is strong and wants to turn all of you against God, and to return you to everything that is human, and to destroy in the heart all feelings towards God and the things of God. You, little children, pray and fight against materialism, modernism and egoism, which the world offers to you. Little children, you decide for holiness and I, with my Son Jesus, intercede for you. Thank you for having responded to my call.

Whether or not one believes in the supernatural happenings in Medjugorje (I do), it’s not hard to accept that these three -isms are currently causing deep divisions, bitterness, and lack of peace in our world.

Each is defined as follows:

  • materialism: a tendency to consider material possessions and physical comfort as more important than spiritual values; the doctrine that nothing exists except matter and its movements and modifications
  • modernism: a movement toward modifying traditional beliefs in accordance with modern ideas
  • egoism: an ethical theory that treats self-interest as the foundation of morality

All these -isms are very evident in our culture, contain empty promises and unleash destruction in the wake of their false claims. Our Mother calls us, instead, to simply decide for holiness, pray, and fight against these evils.  She is praying for us to her Son, Jesus!

I Am Not the Christ

Today’s Gospel is John 1:19-28, where John the Baptist is questioned by the priests, Levites and Pharisees who are sent to find out who he thinks he is, baptizing and attracting followers and disciples. They ask him, “Who are you?” How does one answer that question? Who are you? This is not, “What is your name?” or “What do you do for a living?” or “Where are you from?” This seems to get at the essence of the verb “to be” – “Who are you?” I feel like I can learn so much about John by his response to his questioners. His first response is simply that he is not the Christ. John’s whole worldview and perspective is so focused on the coming Messiah, his relationship to Him and his role in preceding Him, that this is his first thought. I am not; He is.

Does this not sum up all that we need to learn in the spiritual life, all that Christ the Master needs to teach us as disciples?! Lord, you are. I am not. John’s humility is apparent in his response, “I am not the Christ.” I think to myself that sure, I may say this, but do I actually practice it, and in all the layers of my being, motivations, inclinations and thoughts, do I believe it? No! I actually believe I am the Christ. Do I not interiorly put myself on a little pedestal, from where I can hold court and judge all around me — circumstances, situations, behaviors, actions, and God forbid, even people — according to how they affect me, the all important little demigod? If I am honest, yes, this is often my first instinct, my knee-jerk reaction. This is what I begin to do when I do not give time to prayer and proper effort in striving. I have to consciously and constantly work on not trying to be God! I have to become aware of when I am trying to be God! I have to continually strive to step back, take a breath, look to Christ, pray, reflect, repent, reconcile, and heal. One step at a time. John seems to have been well on his way in that process.locusts

Perhaps I should live in the desert and eat locusts and honey. Ah, no, thankfully that won’t be necessary and as a wife and mother, I am definitely not called to do that. I have the Sacraments to strengthen me, and I can fast and/or offer small sacrifices and pray. Praying this litany of humility is also helpful:

O Jesus! meek and humble of heart, Hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed,

Deliver me, Jesus.

From the desire of being loved…
From the desire of being extolled …
From the desire of being honored …
From the desire of being praised …
From the desire of being preferred to others…
From the desire of being consulted …
From the desire of being approved …
From the fear of being humiliated …
From the fear of being despised…
From the fear of suffering rebukes …
From the fear of being calumniated …
From the fear of being forgotten …
From the fear of being ridiculed …
From the fear of being wronged …
From the fear of being suspected …

That others may be loved more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.

That others may be esteemed more than I …
That, in the opinion of the world,
others may increase and I may decrease …
That others may be chosen and I set aside …
That others may be praised and I unnoticed …
That others may be preferred to me in everything…
That others may become holier than I,
provided that I may become as holy as I should…

+++Lord, help me to remember in word and deed, that I am not the Christ. +++


Humble Yourself

Sirach 3:18

Humble yourself the more, the greater you are,
and you will find favor with God.

behold the lamb

Who is greater, and who has humbled Himself more than the holy One who accepted betrayal, unjust condemnation, a torturous death, and burial among sinners?


Does Your Heart Throb and Overflow?

Today is Epiphany. The world has forgotten about Christmas – family has returned home, school has resumed, we are back at our jobs, decorations are packed away, and trees are discarded on the curbside for trash pickup. However, the Christmas liturgical season continues, and today in particular, God wishes to make Himself known to all the world. Today we learn from St. John the Beloved that no one has ever seen God, but if we love, then we make Him present (see 1 John 4:12). This is how God is manifested to us, and this is how we manifest God. The circle of grace continues – to love is to see God, and to see God, we should love. Lord, let that alone be my beginning and my end, my source, and my goal – Love.


Song for this post here:


Beloved, love one another.

Today, the Lord spoke to me.


Today, the Lord spoke to me.

Over the past few days, I became angry at several people over a couple of situations. It disturbed me. In fact, one of those moments was yesterday, and after I somewhat blew up, I was sitting in the chapel with Our Lord, wondering if He also was offended, and I felt that I heard Him say, “I’m not worried about it.” “Well,” I told Him, “You should be.” Silence, though I sensed His gentle, penetrating gaze (and perhaps slight amusement). Today before Mass, I briefly discussed one of the situations with a friend, and told him what upset me. He agreed; I had every right to be angry about it. He assured me I was one of the best people he knew. I appreciated his kind words, but still didn’t feel right.

Then, I listened to the readings. 1 John 4:7-10. Beloved, Love one another, because love is of God. God IS love. And the Gospel was John 15:9-17. I also love you. Remain in My love, so that you may be joyful.

As I pondered these words during the remainder of Mass, the Lord told me more. My reactions to these situations are normal, human reactions and as such are understandable. However, He calls me to respond with a divine reaction – with love. What credit it is it to me if I have normal, human responses to situations? No, I need to react like Him. I know this. I have known this. But, it’s not a matter of intellectual knowing. I have let my prayer life slip. I have been busy. The cares and anxieties of everyday life have taken me from spending regular, quality time with the Lord. However, I also realized that for the moment, my work (writing and editing) has slowed slightly. The Lord has given me this respite to spend with Him. I must use it to draw closer to Him. To come back to Him. Repent.

I prayed, “Lord, grant me strength. Grant me the desire for you. Melt my heart.” I envisioned my heart like a cracked, concrete sidewalk. However, through that crack, I see a shoot of new life, a tiny flower sprouting. “Lord, transform my hard heart into soft, fertile soil where new life can grow. And let that life be Love.”flower