Do You Not Yet Understand or Comprehend?


Yesterday, on the day before the opening of Lent, the words in the Gospel of Mark 8:14-21 cut me to the heart, and I at last felt Christ had given me my spiritual focus for Lent.

To set the scene here, we are early into Jesus’s ministry. The disciples are in a boat with him, having just witnessed unfathomable, heart stopping miracles. The feeding of 5,000 people from five loaves of bread, the feeding of 4,000 from seven loaves of bread, the walking on water, countless healings, demons cast out, and Jesus had also already sent the disciples themselves out and empowered them to heal and exorcise demons in his name.

After all this, Jesus now tries to warn them against what he refers to as the leaven of Herod and of the Pharisees. This image contains much wisdom; however, it’s completely lost on the disciples because, as the Gospel says, they conclude he’s talking about the fact that they forgot to pack enough bread.

Jesus somehow becomes aware of this. And his response is described in this passage as a series of questions. These questions are heartbreaking. They are profound. They reveal so much about the human condition. They tell us so much about how blind we are to the fact of God’s love for us, and how much abundant life we are missing out on. How difficult it is for God to get this through to humanity–his immense love and care for us!

Here are the questions:

  • Do you not yet understand or comprehend?
  • Are your hearts hardened?
  • Do you have eyes and not see, ears and not hear?
  • And do you remember…
  • Do you still not understand?

I enter into Lent pondering these questions.

The first one first, “Do you not yet understand or comprehend?” What is Jesus saying here? “Do you not yet understand that there is nothing you need besides me? That all you need is to have me with you? All your needs, all your desires, everything will be fulfilled for you. All you need is to put me, following my will, advancing my Kingdom, listening to me, bringing my love to those around you, as the number one and primary concern of your entire existence, and everything will be taken care of for you.” Doesn’t Jesus say this essentially when he says, “Seek first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these other things will be given to you”?

Notice how the disciples missed out on the teaching that Jesus was trying to give them about Herod and the Pharisees and their toxic way of thinking. They completely missed it because they were so concerned about the bread. I imagine that poor Jesus’s jaw was on the floorboards of the boat when he realized this. I also believe it was a moment of deep disappointment and a smack of reality as to just how pathetic we all really are. All of these moments that they had spent with him witnessing and even themselves facilitating the miraculous, they simply forgot in the face of such a minor detail as forgetting to pack a picnic. Alas, I am not under any delusions that I’m different at all from the disciples in that boat worried about their one loaf of bread.

What wisdom am I missing from Jesus because of my hangups and anxieties that should be trustfully handed over to Him? What would I do today if I fully understood, knew, realized, experienced, and remembered God’s deep love and care for me? What would be different about my day–today? How would my interactions with people be different? What decisions would I make differently? What words would I say, or not say? How would my thoughts differ? My outlook? My worldview?

Oh Lord, I am so helpless. I am absolutely destitute before you. The disciples had you and all this right in front of them and they literally could not see it. I have you present in the Sacraments, plus 2,000 years of theology, and I also cannot understand the way that I should. Lord, please open my eyes and my ears. I pray for the grace to understand and comprehend your deep love for me. And then, to live that deep understanding and comprehension, to let it bear much good fruit in my life, and for your Kingdom.

Blessed Mother, pray with me, that I will have eyes to see, ears to hear, and a renewed heart that fully understands and comprehends your Son’s love for me.

Jesus, save us from not knowing your love! It is all we need to truly live!

This makes me think of the sadness of Jesus. The song for this post is here: “Love comes slow, and it goes so fast.” Lord, don’t let us let Love go!


Fourth Sunday of Advent, Christmas Eve and the Parable of the Ten Virgins (2017)

image1I woke up this morning before dawn, so excited that it is both the 4th Sunday of Advent, and Christmas Eve! I joyfully spent time in prayer, pondering this Sunday’s readings, the magnificent ways in which God works to fulfill His promises for our salvation, and how short sighted and blind we are to all of it. All that is necessary for us is openness and good intentions, and His love, generosity, and providence will do the rest! May His name be blessed forever!

I also, however, prayed about an issue that I know many are struggling with today — that Catholics are “obligated” to go to Mass for the 4th Sunday of Advent, plus Mass for the Nativity of the Lord. For our family, this will mean Mass at 10am this morning, and then the 5pm vigil Mass tonight. I know it’s been discussed on social media over the past several weeks, as people try to figure out how to fit this into their holiday schedule — doesn’t it count to go to Mass once on Christmas Eve? Why twice? There are reports by the Catholic News Agency that explain it, but the language is all about obligation, and I honestly am not interested in obligations. Honestly, if it’s just about “obligations” — ugh. I don’t think any bridegroom would be happy with His bride meeting him out of obligation, do you? How sad, especially one as beautiful, noble, and worthy as our Lord.

In pondering all this, the parable of the 10 virgins came to me very strongly this morning. Obviously, not all of us are joyful about the prospect of 2 Masses today, as I am! And I understand this, I really do. There was a time when I definitely would not have been either. Obviously something in my life changed, drastically. What does it have to do with this parable?

The parable is in Mt 25:1-13, and in brief Jesus describes 10 virgins who went out to wait for the bridegroom to celebrate a wedding feast. Five were wise and brought extra oil in their lamps, and 5 were foolish and did not. (Remember, this was before telephones and modern communications, so they had no idea when he was arriving.) The bridegroom was delayed and they all fell asleep.  At midnight, there was a cry, “The bridegroom is here!” So they all woke up and trimmed their lamps; however, the 5 foolish ones saw that their lamps were going out. “Give us some of your oil,” they said to the 5 wise virgins. The 5 wise virgins said, “No, then we won’t have enough for us and for you. Go purchase your own.” Of course, when the 5 foolish virgins go off to purchase their oil, all the guests go into the banquet, the doors are locked, and they are left behind.

This story is often perplexing, but today it spoke to me deeply. The key to understanding this parable lies in identifying what is the “oil” in the lamps. I propose that the oil is faith, hope, love, and JOY. The theological virtues, which lead to a deep, abiding joy in all of life’s experiences because they are lived with the Lord.

What is faith? Faith is not just assenting or agreeing to a concept, such as that God exists or that Jesus was God, etc. No, even Satan assents to that, does he not? Faith is going way beyond that, faith is trust in God, giving our life to Him, putting all our eggs into that one basket, entering the Kingdom, banking all on Him alone, purchasing the pearl of great price. But, how can we have faith in, or trust in, someone that we do not know? We can’t.

What is hope? Hope is not optimism. Optimism is keeping your chin up, looking on the bright side of things, for the silver lining, putting a smile on your face. It is related to optimism, but faith provides a reason for it, and that reason alone is God. Because really, we have no reason to hope without God.  Without God, life has NO meaning. None. We live, we work and toil, and in the end, we die. Death wins in the end. But with Jesus, death has been conquered! So, because of Him, and because of Him alone, we can endure all things, and hope in all things. He is with us — Emmanuel. This is what we celebrate in the Incarnation (Christmas!). But, how can we hope if we do not know Him in whom our hope rests? We cannot.

What is love? Love is to will the good of the other. It is not the world’s definition of love, which is often fleeting, me-based, emotion based, or objectifies others. It is simply wanting what is truly for the eternal, long-term good of the other, and that may or may not have a benefit for us personally. It is seeing and acting with the eyes of Jesus Christ. But how can we truly love if we do not know His Word, and what is important to Him? We cannot.

What is Joy? Joy is not pleasure. Pleasure is fleeting. It comes and goes. Pleasure is often a diversion or entertainment, which is good and fun, but it is not the same as joy. Joy is knowing beyond doubt, because you have experienced it, that heaven has begun, eternal life with Jesus, has already started, and nothing can ever take that from you, no matter what comes. Joy is there through thick and thin, good times and bad, through every experience in life, for the believer. It is based in confidence in Jesus, and in knowing His constant presence. But, how can we have joy, if we have not experienced Him and His saving power in our lives? We cannot.

So this is why the wise virgins say, no, we cannot give you our oil. You must go purchase your own. We simply cannot give someone these gifts. They come from God, actually. BUT, but…we do need to take concrete steps to cultivate them and open ourselves to them. They do not just come on their own. It is fitting that it says the virgins have to “buy” the oil. It will be purchased at a great price for sure. This oil comes at the cost of our time, giving our time to God in prayer, on a regular basis. It comes at the cost of giving over our selfish ways — giving over to His mercy habits that we know are not according to His ways, because they are not good for us. It comes at the cost of humbling ourselves — going before Him in the Sacrament of confession, making a good confession and receiving His unfathomable, inexhaustible mercy and strength to do better, over and over again. It comes at the cost of picking up our cross, day after day, and following Him.

However, know this — what we are giving up, and we perceive to be great sacrifices, are really very small in relation to the immense gifts He wants to pour out on us, if only we will open up those channels of grace. We open the channels of grace through prayer, fasting, and the Sacraments — note, these do not make us holy, but they are the means by which we open ourselves to God, and He can complete His work in us, transforming us into His image, from glory to glory (2 Cor 3:18).

And what are the rewards? First of all — the oil of faith, love, hope, and joy. Living the beatitudes (blessed are you ), taking on the yoke of Christ rather than the yoke of the world, because He gets under it with us, and it’s easy and light. The gifts and fruits of the Holy Spirit will flourish and grow within us (love, joy,peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control) and God’s life will increase in us more and more, and we will be astounded as we watch His plan for our lives unfold. Just as Mary our Blessed Mother was, and still is today, fulfilling her role as the Mother of all God’s children into eternity.

Don’t delay — the bridegroom is coming at an unknown hour! Look around at the world, is the hour perhaps approaching?

Happy 4th Sunday of Advent! Merry Christmas!


Take Care to Guard


Today’s Gospel comes from Luke 12:13-21. The words that have been with me all day are “Take care to guard against all greed.” “Greed,” according to means “intense and selfish desire for something.”

These words, spoken by Jesus so long ago, have come to me at the perfect moment. I needed His gentle counsel with regards to a particular area of my life. I prayed for help with this. Here is His answer: His beautiful Word.

I have not been tempted towards money or material goods, as is the man described in this Gospel passage and parable, but in another way, also another powerful but deadly temptation. Truly, it’s one that surprises me, because I naively thought I would never have this particular temptation, and yet, here it is. I did not try to hide it from the Lord, but entrusted it to Him, and prayed about it, and tried not to become disturbed when my mind has returned to it often. When I become aware of it, I simply bring it back to Jesus in prayer. And then, today, He speaks to me gently about it. Take care to guard your heart. It is precious. Take care.

How do I take care? Through prayer. Through vigilance. Through the Word of God. Through having recourse to our Blessed Mother. Through fasting and self denial. Through avoiding tempting situations as much as possible. Take care. Store up riches that are important to God, which are the virtues.

I noticed the rich man in the parable does not seem to consider God at all. “He asked himself,” Jesus says, “He said to himself,” etc. When did he ask for God’s input? He didn’t. He was totally self centered, i.e., centered on himself, his own desires, his own agenda. This is greed, is it not? We all are tempted towards this. When we become aware of it, we need to mindfully and purposefully re-direct our thoughts, actions, and wills towards God. “Take care.” “Guard.”

We guard something that is precious. Our life with Jesus is precious. Our riches that we store up for God are precious. Let us take care to guard them, with the help of Jesus, our Savior, who does not leave us alone in our temptations.

Jesus, I trust in You!


“I Have Seen the Lord!”

Magdalene.jpgToday, July 22nd, is the feast of St. Mary Magdalene, who is often referred to as the Apostle to the apostles because, as we read in John 20:11-18, she was the first to encounter the risen Christ after His crucifixion and announce it to the apostles.

Mary Magdalene is very often referred to as a reformed prostitute, but there is no Scriptural basis for this. What the Scriptures do say is that Jesus had exorcised her of seven demons. We may gloss over this as we read Scripture, or may not be aware of it, but consider it now.

Many people today do not even believe the devil is real, much less that Satan can influence human events, threaten us, harass, or possess us. For example, Father Arturo Sosa Abascal, who is the superior general of the Jesuits, recently said in interview, “We have formed symbolic figures such as the devil to express evil.” His intent and meaning was clearly that the devil is not a person, and is merely a personification by people of faith to express the reality of our own bad choices, whether individually or as cultures.

However, the Gospels and the Catechism could not be more clear that Satan is real. He is a fallen angel; other angels followed him, and we should not be afraid, but we do need to be prudent and take up our spiritual weapons in battling and defeating these enemies. As angels, they are superior in intellect to humans, and we cannot rely on our own cleverness or resourcefulness. There are so many accounts of Jesus exorcising demons and referring to Satan (the Father of Lies) in the Gospels, that I cannot even fathom how Fr. Abascal can defend his statement or stance. Indeed, it is why Jesus came — “Indeed, the Son of God was revealed to destroy the works of the devil” (1 John 3:8). I also know from experience that anyone who determines to seriously embark on the path of prayer will very soon encounter this enemy, and do battle with him and his minions.

I have a book, Unbound by Neal Lozano, about deliverance. The title of chapter 2 is, “Satan has a plan for your life.” This is powerful, and it’s a flip of the typical statement of faith, “God has a plan for your life.” Both are true. Whose plan will we live? His book is excellent, and it speaks of how our choices, both conscious and unconscious, knowingly and unknowingly, either open us to God’s plan, or to Satan’s plan. I would argue that most of us have both at work in our lives, but hopefully the believer increasingly is freed from the binds of Satan and living in the freedom of Christ. The world often thinks of God’s laws as restricting, oppressive, and no fun, but it is just the opposite. Be sure — we want God’s plan to unfold in our lives, not the evil one’s. Living in the freedom that Christ offers us — free from the oppression of sin, free to choose the love of God, free to trust in His goodness and providence always — gives us tremendous love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control — all the fruits of His Spirit. I would argue that someone who lives these qualities is truly happy and living in great peace and trust in God, rather than someone who is bound by compulsions (such as drinking, drugs), anxieties (excessive worry, lack of trust in God), desire for instant gratification (being impatient), who can’t control their appetites (greed, intemperance, lust), etc.

Consider someone at the extreme end of this spectrum of being not only bound, but actually possessed by seven demons, which is what the Gospel of Luke says Jesus saved Mary Magdalene from. Possession is occupation of the body by unholy spirit(s), and it cannot happen by accident but the victim must acquiesce knowingly to the unholy in some manner. Manifestations of demonic possession vary but the Gospel of Luke, for example, describes the Gerasene demoniac as living among the tombs and not in a house, not wearing any clothes, not able to be restrained even by shackles or chains, and being driven into deserted places by the demons (Luke 8:27-29). This is a pathetic, lonely, and dangerous state of being, and it said the demoniac had been that way “for a long time.”

We have no information about how Mary Magdalene became possessed or what her life was like during that horrible time, but we do know that Jesus saved her — because that’s what He does, and that she was eternally grateful. She knew what hell on earth was like, and she knew His power, and His alone, to vanquish the evil presences from her body and soul, and she knew that she needed Him to remain free from their influence. Most importantly, we simply see in the Gospels how much Mary Magdalene loved Jesus. That’s what strikes me about her, and this is something we all can model from her. She lived a very close, personal, loving relationship with Jesus. I think this is why stories and modern myths, if you will, such as those from Dan Brown’s novel gain popularity claiming that Jesus was married to her — because unless you have lived and experienced this love for Christ, it’s just not possible to understand other than in the context of a human, intimate, sexual relationship. And, this is really not such a bad comparison, because her love for and relationship with Jesus was and is passionate, loving, deep, extremely personal, and on fire. However, no — it was not sexual. It was so beyond that. This is what’s confusing to our modern sensibilities, so consumed with everything sexual. But, I digress. The good news is that we are all invited to this relationship with Jesus! It’s open to all, and there are many who have lived it (I refer you to the Saints)!

The devil’s first goal is to make us think he doesn’t exist, and to a large extent he has accomplished this in today’s rational mind. However, as Christians, we neither want to be fearful and looking for him behind everything, nor naive and oblivious to his operations and machinations in our world, or his temptations in our lives. We need to be prudent and on guard but also at peace with great trust in our Savior. Our Lady in Medjugorje speaks of five stones to wield as weapons against him. This alludes to the stones that David had in his bag when he defeated Goliath. Therefore, the five stones or spiritual weapons through which we open oursleves to Jesus to overcome not only the devil, but also our own inclinations to selfishness, and worldly temptations are:

  1. Prayer. Way more than you think. Honestly, everyone should have at least an hour each day of prayer time – half hour in the morning and half hour in the evening. Include the rosary because it is prayer with Blessed Mother that crushes the head of the serpent.
  2. Eucharist. We should both receive the Lord (in proper disposition; please see here) as often as possible (daily Mass if possible), and spend time, preferably at least once a week for an hour, in adoration.
  3. Monthly Confession, at least. More if grave sin is committed.
  4. Fasting. This can be corporal or non-corporal, but the best fast is on bread and water, twice a week (Wednesdays and Fridays). This should be modified if you are unable. Don’t be prideful; rather, do something that you can without risking your health. Fast from complaining. Fast from excessive speech. Fast from social media and use the time for prayer instead; ask God what he desires and follow His grace.
  5. Scripture reading/praying with Scripture. Lectio divina or Ignatian methods of praying with Scripture, Bible study, etc.

Obviously these are goals to work up to. One doesn’t begin doing all this in one day! Above all, pray for the gift of God’s love to give to others, and entrust everything to our Blessed Mother, all cares, worries, and problems. She WILL help you! You, worry only about being holy, pleasing Jesus, and loving His people.

In today’s Gospel, we see Mary Magdalene encounter the risen Jesus, and then run to tell his apostles the amazing news, “I have seen the Lord!” She is so traumatized by the events of the previous days that she almost doesn’t recognize what has happened, but Jesus calls her name, and her heart melts with love, awe, joy, amazement, and devotion. Something too good to even be true has just occurred. The love of her heart, the fulfillment of all desire, is not dead. He is alive! She MUST tell the brothers!

This passage shows us the model of the two great missions of the Church: encounter, and evangelization. We ARE the church, that is us! Therefore, we must strive to constantly encounter Jesus, and then tell others, by our lives and our words, the Good News. “I have seen the Lord!

St. Mary Magdalene, Pray for us!




Speak Lord, Your Servant is Listening

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Sower with Setting Sun by Vincent van Gogh

See Today’s Mass Readings here.

In today’s first reading, we hear the prophet Isaiah proclaim that God’s word goes forth from His mouth and effects what it says, and it does not return to Him void. Just as when He created and said, “Let there be light,” and there was light, so it remains today. This is what is amazing about the Sacraments. In Reconciliation, God says we are forgiven, and so it is. In the Eucharist, God says, “This is my body; This is my blood,” and so it is, the bread and wine are transformed. His Word does not return to Him void. It achieves His will.

Think about Jesus as the Word of God. He goes forth from the Father, accomplishes His will, and does not return to Him void. His miracles, and especially His resurrection, give testimony to the fact that His word effects what He says. He says, “Be healed,” and those who received His word were healed. He said He would rise on the third day, and so it happened.

Now consider the Gospel reading, Matthew’s account of Jesus’s parable of the sower. The sower went out to sow, and scattered the seeds carelessly and liberally. Seed was not cheap! Yet, he did not seem to be calculating or hold back, but spread it around on all kinds of soil, hoping to yield fruit where, humanly speaking, this would not even be possible. This tells us about God, does it not? He sends rain and sun on the just and the unjust. His grace is undeserved, and freely given. He does not give it only to those who are thankful, or generous in sharing it. That’s how we are; that’s not how God thinks.

Now look at the soil. This is us. Let us truly examine whether we are that good soil, and do what is needed to prepare our hearts to be good soil for God’s word to take effect. God’s word indeed goes out, but if the soil is not prepared, it simply will not bear fruit in our lives. However, if it is, the results are incredible. At first, they are not perceivable, but then they grow exponentially.

How do we prepare the soil? We prepare the soil through prayer, through good works, and through avoiding sin. Then when we receive God’s Word, whether it be through Scripture reading/meditation, the Sacraments, through prayer, through encountering Him in nature — in whatever way He comes to us — that soil is rich and ready to receive the seed. And if we continue to prepare the soil, new seeds during new planting seasons will always produce new harvests.

When hearing the Word today, I prayed that I would be very rich soil, ready to receive the seed and produce good fruit for God’s kingdom. I feel the Lord even now at work in my life, and I pray that I will be faithful to that work, faithful in prayer, in listening, in responding with openness to Him first. It is so easy to become overwhelmed with fear, or to have cares, busyness and anxiety choke out His Word. When we don’t give time for prayer, this quickly happens. However, when we do, and respond in silence, reverence and awe, saying, “Speak, Lord, your servant is listening,” we truly can only wonder at the ever increasing gifts and blessings the Lord unfolds in our lives. Our lives with God are like an upward spiral, continually coming back around to the same places, but at different levels, and we can see from different vantage points the same issues He wants to heal in us, and blessings He wants to impart. Yes, let us be open to receive everything He desires to give in His Word. Let us have awe and wonder at His marvels at work in our lives.


Speak, Lord, your servant is listening.” 1 Samuel 3:10

Moana, the Sacred Heart, and the Eucharist


Note, SPOILER ALERT if you have not seen this movie.

I watched Disney’s Moana on Netflix the other night with my daughter. It was the third time we had seen it, because we both loved it! I woke up thinking about it the next morning, and realized (oh, how did I forget) when I looked at the Mass readings for the day that it was the Solemn Feast of the Sacred Heart of Jesus. Wow! This spoke to me.

The Sacred Heart is a beautiful solemn feast in which the Church celebrates the unfathomable love Jesus has for each of us, symbolized by the image of His heart. The heart of Christ is depicted as pierced with thorns, bleeding, and on fire. Ponder this image, which came to us through (among others) a mystic, St. Margaret Mary Alacoque, who said that in her visions, Jesus Himself gave her this image, and He wanted all people to know about it, meditate on it, see it, and have devotion to it. Again…Jesus wanted his heart depicted as wounded, bleeding, and burning to show the passionate love He has for us. This is not a collective “us”. This burning love is for you, [insert your name here]. Every hair on your head is counted, as He says in the Gospels. He calls you by name. His love for each person is extremely passionate, deep, and personal.  He wants us to know this, and so He has revealed it to us in so many ways. The Scriptures and the Sacraments testify to this love, and He gave us the image of the Sacred Heart, the solemn feast day, and also asked that devotion to His Sacred Heart be practiced on every First Friday.

Back to Moana, a Disney movie somewhat based on Oceanic mythology. From what I’ve read, much of it was done well and is accurate; some was not. At any rate, everyone I personally know who saw it absolutely loved the story, and found it very moving, even to the point of tears (often), during the movie. I conclude this is because there is much Gospel truth in the story, it has beautiful music, and Moana herself is a noble and inspiring character.

Longings throughout her childhood, mystical experiences, the wise guidance of her grandmother, and fate all lead Moana to discern that it is her mission to restore the heart of the demigod, Te Fiti, which had been stolen by Maui (another demigod), long before Moana was born. As a result, Te Fiti stopped creating new islands, the ones she had previously made began to decay, and darkness had spread, threatening Moana’s own island and her people. In a dramatic moment on the night her beloved grandmother dies, and against the wishes of her father, Moana leaves her island and people by night, crosses the reef protecting her island, and proceeds to persevere through a treacherous journey during which she learns to navigate and sail, overcomes numerous threats and obstacles, and receives help from the ocean itself, and from Maui.

Finally, Moana faces off with the powerful and demonic Te Ka. Maui’s first instinct is to try to defeat Te Ka with force, which is clearly impossible, given the strength and power of Te Ka. Moana, however, remains calm, and realizes (after gazing upon it) the power of the heart of Te Fiti she has carried on this journey — it is the power of love, which alone can conquer Te Ka. She courageously says to the ocean (which has supernatural powers), “Let her come to me.” Enjoy what happens next, and the beautiful scene of the restoration of the heart of Te Fiti here:

Note how the ocean parts (like the Red Sea did for Moses, which was a foreshadowing of Baptism); Te Ka angrily approaches, as Moana sings Know Who You Are: “I have crossed the horizon to find you /I know your name /They have stolen the heart from inside you, but this does not define you /This is not who you are /You know who you are.” And, then…Moana places Te Ka’s lost heart into her chest.

Isn’t this stunning? Isn’t Moana a beautiful and noble image of our Savior? Do the words of this song reflect that the Lord calls us by name, that He goes out to seek us when we are lost? Note how Te Ka is not forced, but invited to come, and comes on her own free will. Moana looks at the heart and sees that it is perfectly fitted and suited to fit into Te Ka’s chest, which speaks of the very personal and intimate love God has for each individual. Note Moana’s humility and “smallness” as she stands there, vulnerable, her only claim is the heart, shining brightly, attractive, stunning — divine love itself, and it is more than enough. Immediately after Te Ka’s heart is restored, she is healed, returns to her former self as the beautiful island goddess Te Fiti and her life-generating abilities return. Everything around her suddenly and magnificently bursts into vegetation of various vibrant colors.

I cannot help but see the heart of Te Fiti as a reflection of the Sacred Heart of Jesus. Whenever the Sacred Heart is depicted, Jesus is shown as revealing his heart and offering it to us. Consider that God says through the prophet Ezekiel (36:26), “I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.” This Old Testament promise is fulfilled in the gift of the Eucharist, where Jesus truly gives us His heart! I think of the numerous Eucharistic miracles (in various times and places) in which the Eucharistic host has visibly turned into flesh, it was subsequently analyzed, and was shown to be heart tissue (and, as a side note, blood type AB). When we receive Jesus in the Eucharist, we are truly receiving His heart, and also His blood that was poured out for us, His soul, and His divinity. If the mythical story of Moana moves us, how much more should the truth of Christ’s love for us, and His continual gift of His heart given to us in the Eucharist? If we but take time to ponder it, should we not be overwhelmed with thanksgiving and love for Jesus for this unfathomable gift?

And, aren’t we like Te Ka without the presence of Jesus in our lives? “Apart from me, you can do nothing” (John 15:5). How easily and quickly do our hearts become hard, cold, and cynical? (I certainly speak for myself here.) If I just wake up and look at the news instead of turning to Him in prayer, I am already well on my way! But, with Jesus, holiness is possible, as is self control, love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness — all the fruits of the Spirit! But, yes, I am often like Te Ka, and Moana is a reflection of our Savior. He beckons, and I approach salvation through the parted waters of Baptism, approaching the beautiful, shining heart (which is Jesus’s own heart, given for me, and you). He Himself places it within my chest. Immediately, I am transformed. I am healed. I am forgiven. I can love with His love. My life can be abundance, fruitfulness, and life.

This is what receiving the heart of Jesus in the Eucharist does for us spiritually — remember, the pierced, bleeding heart that is on fire with love. With Him, we are free from the slavery of sin, death, destruction, darkness, and evil. We are free to truly be the beautiful people that God made us to be (You Know Who You Are). Like the beautiful, life bearing Te Fiti.


I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.

Ezekiel 36:26

Abortion: A Call to Knowledge and Thought

Abortion. Women’s rights. The inviolable dignity of the human person. Big issues – many opinions. I, however, don’t want opinions; I want truth. The majority opinion, or the loudest opinion, does not necessarily equal truth. Truth should guide our lives. Opinions should not guide our lives, or at least not if they do not line up with truth, and with how the universe is ordered.

I beg you — before you declare that your mind is made up, and go with what is the default stance these days, that “A woman has the right to choose,” there is some information you MUST have, and you must pray and think about. You owe it to yourself, to the next generation, and to all of humanity. The issue is too important to just go along with the crowd, or not to take time to learn and ponder. This is THE human rights issue of our time. I write this post with no judgement on anyone for any opinions they hold or claim, or for anything anyone may have done in the past. We all have pasts. We all are influenced by our environment. I only write this to ask you to gain knowledge. That is my only agenda.

First, you must understand the procedures for surgical abortion – first or second trimester. Below are videos with the procedures explained by an Ob/Gyn. Everyone should understand what these medical procedures actually involve. (Note, you need not be hesitant to watch the videos – they are not bloody or gory, but are animated and calmly narrated by the physician.)

A first trimester (5-13 weeks of pregnancy) surgical abortion is an aspiration (suction) dilation and curettage (D & C) abortion. This is the most common type of surgical abortion. The procedure is explained here:

The second trimester (13-24 weeks of pregnancy) surgical abortion, also very common, is a dilation and evacuation (D & E) abortion. The procedure is explained here:

Understand that due to litigation, requirements of providing full informed consent to the woman undergoing an abortion about these procedures, potential risks, complications, and alternatives, which is required with any other medical procedure, are lax. One has to ask why.  To quote from Irrational Woman published in the Duke Journal of Gender Law & Policy, Volume 16:223:

Gonzales v. Carhart …brought the question of women’s capacity for healthcare decision-making to the forefront of public legal consciousness. In Carhart, the Court abandoned its previous deference and respect for a woman’s right to be her own decision-maker with regard to abortion and instead determined that a pregnant woman lacks capacity to make her own decisions and to give informed consent to abortion-related medical treatment. According to the Court, the government may make the final decision regarding a pregnant woman’s healthcare to ensure that she realizes her “ultimate” role as a mother.

How stunning, and offensive! Apparently some high-level attorneys and lawmakers think women are so fragile, or so ignorant, that we cannot or should not be trusted with full information to make a decision regarding abortion — and yet the mantra is that it’s a “woman’s right to choose.” Choice means one should have as much information as possible. According to the tenets of informed consent, information should be understandable for a patient according to her level of education, language, etc., but it should not be decided by a court ruling that women do not have the “capacity.” So just know that women undergoing these procedures — perhaps poor and/or  not well educated, are not given adequate information to make a clear decision, in addition to being in a vulnerable situation financially, emotionally, psychologically, and/or medically. Women also are not usually given accurate information about the embryonic and fetal development according to their stage of pregnancy before an abortion; thus the “clump of cells” myth is perpetuated, wrongly. Factor all this together and we have extremely coercive situations for women.

Speaking of fetal development, this is an absolutely stunning depiction of all 9 months of pregnancy shortened into a 4-minute clip. Again, don’t enter this conversation unless you understand the science of embryology. Watch 9 Months Of Pregnancy Is Shortened In One Amazing 4-Minute Clip and consider it with awe and wonder:

Also, you must understand the sheer scale of the number of abortions we are talking about in the USA. We are now over 58,500,000 lost lives to abortion and counting since abortion was made legal in 1973 through the Roe vs. Wade decision. This number is astronomical. It is WAY more than all lives lost in every military conflict the USA has been involved in, combined. It is WAY more than any genocide that has taken place in the course of human history. This is not just something that happens occasionally, when there are dire circumstances, as pro-choice proponents would have you think. The floodgates are wide open, and the sheer magnitude of this issue warrants an honest examination. It used to be that pro-choice advocates said that abortion should be “safe, legal, and rare”; in fact it was Hillary Clinton who made that claim well known when she said it over 25 years ago. At 58 million, obviously this is not the case. Please read more about the number of abortions and why it “stopped making sense” for one feminist here; consider her arguments:

When Abortion Stopped Making Sense by Frederica Mathewes-Green published by National Review.

Some other points and thoughts:

  • A woman does not have a right to “do what she wants with her body.” All laws have to do with what we do with our body, do they not? If a woman decides what she wants to do with her body is go and hold up a convenience store at gunpoint, is that ok because she is a woman? No. All laws regard what we do with our bodies, because we are human, and we live out our lives with our bodies. What are the other laws for then, exactly?
  • “You can’t be anti-abortion and also be against universal healthcare, large federal government funded welfare programs to aid the poor, etc.” Actually, the right to life is the first and foremost right – without the right to LIFE, no other benefits, rights or discussions can happen; they are moot. At any rate, the rejection of life is not a solution to poverty, a healthcare crisis, a lack of resources, etc. and these are all separate discussions. This is actually a very scary “solution” to any of these problems – i.e., You propose to eliminate poverty by eliminating the poor? This is not inspiring leadership. This is pathetic, hopeless, and Marxist. Experience tells me that opening ourselves to goodness and life, opens us up to possibilities and to solutions. Necessity is the mother of invention. I do not accept that we need abortion because we haven’t first solved all of these other issues; we will solve them when we have decided that protecting and caring for our people, ALL people, is our first priority and is worthy of our sacrifice and resources.
  • “If you don’t approve of abortion, don’t have one.” Let’s see if this works: if you don’t approve of slavery, don’t own a slave. No – injustice is injustice; it must be called out and fought. I refer you to the videos above about the actual abortion procedures if you aren’t sure if abortion is unjust. Did you watch them?
  • As for the time of viability being when a baby has a right to life, we all are dependent upon others for care at various times in our lives, and certainly all infants are. This is not a factor in a discussion of whether a human life should be protected and have legal rights.
  •  Regarding situations when the life of the mother is at stake… If there is truly a case in which a mother’s life is in danger, then by all means, even the Catholic Church, which has been the most consistent defender of the dignity of the human person from conception to natural death, would say that there is no moral requirement for that mother to sacrifice her own life for that of her unborn child. The mother’s life is just as valuable and sacred as the one she is carrying, and no doubt there are already people who depend on her, whose needs must be considered. In truth, however, these cases are almost nonexistent medically, and they are morally approached in this manner. If a woman needs to be treated medically, and in the course of that treatment, the demise of her unborn child takes place, that is a secondary effect of the treatment and is tragic, but it is not immoral. This is different from directly aborting. If a mother has to be treated, and it is known that this treatment can greatly harm an unborn child, then there needs to be much prayer, discernment, medical advice, and looking at options for the best course. E.g., could treatment be delayed until viability and the baby delivered and cared for? However, if a woman is in a late stage of pregnancy, to hear a doctor say that she “needs” an abortion to save her life is an unbelievable insult to the practice of medicine. If I had such a doctor, I would tell him or her that they were the most pathetic excuse for a medical professional, and I would find one that would implement a plan to deliver my child, have appropriate medical care for the baby, and treat me as needed. Again, these cases are such a small percentage – that number above, 58,000,000 literally has almost nothing to do with cases in which the life of the mother is at stake.
  • Currently in the USA, women have an extra “right” that men do not have. They have the legal right to obtain an abortion; whereas, men have no say whatsoever legally in whether or not their biological child is aborted. Just pointing it out — this is an inequality and therefore an injustice under the law that is based on gender.

The bottom line is this…abortion is demanded by a culture that has separated the act of having sex with the commitments of marriage and raising children. We live in a contraceptive mindset; we have been taught from an early age that the only sins as far as sex goes are 1) repression of our urges, which is harmful and 2) not protecting ourselves from pregnancy or disease. We have accepted this unquestioningly from trusted “experts” who have also flooded the population with contraception (schools, government funded programs) to back it up, so of course we have a demand for abortion. The mindset, plus the easy access to contraception, naturally means more people will be having sex, at younger ages, and not necessarily in committed relationships. This is only an issue of numbers. With more people having sex (way more), then there will inevitably be contraceptive failures (due to user error or just because no contraceptive is 100% effective – none). Therefore, large numbers of those who are having sex are not prepared for commitment and children, and thus abortion is “needed.”

Which brings me to one more consideration. All of this has changed the sexual marketplace in ways that were not foreseen with the advent of the birth control pill, and the sexual revolution in the 1960s. Those who claim to be “women’s rights” proponents have not connected the dots of how everything has shifted in what we can call the sex and marriage marketplace to put women at an enormous disadvantage. Read the Bitter Pill in First Things and watch Economics of Sex here:

Until women do the hard work of learning about, thinking about, and being challenged by these issues, opening our minds and changing our behaviors, nothing will change, and women and their children will continue to be betrayed by abortion and the voices that promote it. If we don’t, many are only too happy to take advantage of the “available opportunities” and then do everything possible to eliminate the consequences (i.e., children). Women, it’s in our hands. Do we want to continue with the groupthink, to our own detriment and that of the next generation? Or do we want to truly be strong, live out our sexuality with integrity, and entrust it to the Lord, who has told us how we will be protected and happy. It is a great gift. He is ever patient, always ready to teach us, lead us on the way. What is one small change you can make today to change your mindset? One small step at a time is all that is needed.

There is no “safe sex” people. It was never meant to be “safe”. It is meant to be a total, selfless, life-giving, all encompassing gift of one’s whole body, life, future —everything
–to the one who promised before God and others to give that back in return. And we just settle for so much less and wonder why we are unhappy and “need” atrocities like abortion. This is the beginning of another post, I suppose.

“My people perish for lack of knowledge” says the Lord. Hosea 4:6